Happy
New Year to everyone around the world!
It’s
a new year, but nothing much will change unless you start changing yourself. I
mean, you still face the same shit at work right? HAHA. Talking about work,
well someone is back from the super long leave. Somehow it felt better when I
was alone. Meh.
Starting
2k17 with lots and lots and lots (tone: KingCoco’s slang) of goals and
motivation in mind. You can click on the 2k17 tab above for more details, if
you’re well hmm kepo enough.
Hopefully I can push myself through all of it, even though I know that I will
want to pull back at certain times.
Finance
has been shaky ever since I started investing in PA. Yes, I still have excess
to spend monthly, but it wasn’t as much or as stable as before I started PA. I
really don’t know if I’m able to survive the months sometimes, especially when
I think about the school fees, and the fact that I have to start investing for
PA’s next collection.
That
aside, I still find myself giving in to people when they are in need of money.
I don’t know, I guess it’s just that I’ve been through it. I’ve been through
that dark time, where I was surrounded by debts (even worst when you’re not the
one utilizing the loan) and had no one to turn to for help. I’ve been through
the jobless month and struggled even after settling in my new job. I went
through months surviving on a mere $20-$50 because I had to use the rest to pay
off the debts that were under my name. Fuck, it’s so scary I don’t want to go
through that shit again.
Now
that I’m able to breathe better, I don’t want people to go through that shit.
Especially people who are close to me. Because I know how hard that is and not
everyone is strong enough to pull through that situation. Even if it means that
I have lesser for myself, it’s okay. Dalam rizq’ seseorang, ada tertulis rizq’
orang lain. Help others, and help will come to you when you need it. In
Shaa Allah.
Travel
wise, somehow travel plans are emerging suddenly. I told myself to not travel
within the first 8months mainly because of finance, but also because of school
and PA. But it’s too tempting that it’s hard to resist! Mind control Bazilah,
mind control.
Lastly….
Amidst all of the whole new year new thing thingy, are you prepared for the end
of the world? Food for thoughts.
Xox,
