Happy 19th Birthday !

Dearest Nana,

I'm sorry for not wishing you in the morning, but instead just pour out my rants to you. I didn't mean to and I didn't forget that it's your special day today. I just had alot of things on my mind this morning. Once again, I'm sorry.

Since it's your special day today, I hope that you enjoy today being with your friends. They booked you first, so we're lenient enough to want to celebrate it tomorrow. (: I hope that your day and everyday after today will be filled with joy and laughter, being with your loved ones.

Although the both of us have frequent fights with each other, and we always seem to not able to get along, there's always aplace for you in my heart. No matter how stupid or childish or immature people say you are, you are a Lanaeira, and I love every part of you. Especially your makcik-kepo part . Haha . (:

It's 2010, and so I hope that you would begin everything anew. Let bygones be bygones, and let the past mistakes guide you towards your future endeavours.

Once again, Happy 19th Birthday babygirl. Put that smile up on your face always, and I don't want to see you tearing or thinking about something's not worth all the time okay ! Love you .

LalaLanaeira .

Dearest Winnie,

The relation between An and myself are just friends . Yes, we may be close, pretty close at times, but that doesn't mean that I'm in love with him or I want to be with him . When I tell you that he's just a friend of mine, I mean it, and I won't eat my words up .

I don't know what kind of conversations you and him always have, but all I know is, he's still very much in love with you . Although he's not with you now, he still wants to be with you . I know him, cause he's a Libra too . He acts the same way as I do .

You keep on asking him to go to me, and say that you don't want to be the obstacle between us, but why ? I do not love him more than a friend . & sorry, you can't force love .

So now, I'm telling you that you're making a H.U.G.E mistake by moving on with your life, cause whenever he's talking to me, he'll sound very sad that you're actually moving on with your life . But it's your choice, I can't force you . I just don't want you to be looking back at the end of the day and say "Shit, I should have just trusted what Lala said, and stick to An ."

AnBoogs,

Please just use my name on your blog . It kinda contradict my words if you use your way of naming me to name me in your blog . I want people to understand that the both of us are just very very very close friends .

& also, you sound like a playboy okay ! Haha . Bie sane, Dear sini, Baby lagi . Tsk ! Da 2010 tau, setia pada satu je . ((:

So to everyone out there who's been doubting the both of us, here's the truth . And from here, I don't want to be hearing stories such as;

• " You gi ar ngn you nye love "
• " Oh, you ngn lala eh ? Sorry ar, I tknk kacau you ngn your love "
• " Kau ngn lala mataer pe ? "
• " Crite krng due hot sak pt FM "
• " Lala yg curi An dari Winnie pe "

Nak hot apenye lagi eh ? I've let out everything, yg selame nie sume org mcm kepo2 gitu kan . & if in any case anyone wants to say the last phrase again, come and meet up with me, we have some talking to do . Tsk !

Lala Lanaeira .

New Year, New Resolution, New Hopes .

& so, I won't be consuming any alcoholic beverages from now on . I've made a promise to Nana, that I'll quit drinking . so yea, stop giving me liquor okay party people ? (:

New Years Eve -

Met Nana, and went to Raffles to meet An, Fai and Along . While Nana went to meet Fir, the guys drank . & we were separated from Nana last minute, and it's freaking hard to get thru her . So in the end, we just found a spot with a clear view to watch the fireworks.

When the fireworks blasted, a million thoughts was running through my mind . Reminiscing about the previous year, you were beside me, your arms around me . You whispering your feelings to me . It was the first best moment of the year . But this year, it wasn't you beside me . I had hoped it would be you, but it was just a beautiful dream that I had .

Sidetracked. After the fireworks ended, we walked and we finally get to meet Nana & Fir . We walked back to Raffles cause Fir's hungry and he was meeting his cousin . The guys drank again, and after that, we went to chill at Esplanade .

It was boring there, so the last minute plans was, DXO . With Nana . So kite berdansa sekejap dan Nana pon join kite berdansa sekali tauu . (:

After that, it was home sweet home .

Nana, whatever it is that you're feeling earlier in the morning, do share it okay . Don't keep it to yourself . I'll be there for you sweets . <3

& so that's the eve that I had .

Lala Lanaeira .

A new year has begun, and i'm glad to say that I made through 2009 although it's filled with many painful memories . Thanks to the lovable friends that I have around me, who are constantly there when I'm in need, no words can express how much I appreciate you people .

The first half of the year, was both great and heart-breaking . I'm glad that I could be with you, although for a very short period of time . I had wished that we could be together much longer, but fate is definitely not on my side . You were my homie, my lover, and my friend . I wish you all the best in life now, especially with your love ones around you . May you be happy always, Khairil .

Seribu Kenangan - Didicazli, Still - Bryan McKngiht

During the worst days of my life, my Naeira(s) were there to support and cheer me up . Thank you for being such a lovable friend . Though the fights that we get into, the grudges that some of us hold or even any other thing which seemed to make us drift apart happens, you girls never fail to be there whenever I'm in need of a listening ear . This 6 years of friendship have proven how dedicated we are to each other, although we might be busy with our own things . I love you girls, and I hope that nothing will break our friendship . The three of you are my sisters that God definitely forget to give me . Nana, Era, Ira is L.O.V.E .